Saturday, May 9, 2009
So sick of being fat
So I am going to try and stop, I will try not to binge for a week.
I am stronger than this, I can defeat it!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Social life is very tiring
When we came out anyway I couldnt find mom and she kept on trying to ring me but my phone doesnt work as she knows. And suddenly all you hear from the other side of the car park JADE!!!!! I jumped out of my skin and ran liike lightening to the car.
On Saturday I went to Mahon with Fiona and Emma. I felt so old, everyone in Mahon point is like 12 years old. I prefer town but town has no cinema. So its Mahon or Midleton.I went to see The curios case of Benjamin Button. I swear to God its the most boring film in the exsistance of films. My legs were killing me also as I had been swimming that morning. It was four hours long. It was late when we got out and all the shops were closed. So we got some hot chocolate and listen to this with cream and mallows! Yuuuum I only had half the cup it was so rich.
Anyway I shall leave you on that note...
Miss J
XXXXXX
Social life is very tiring
When we came out anyway I couldnt find mom and she kept on trying to ring me but my phone doesnt work as she knows. And suddenly all you hear from the other side of the car park JADE!!!!! I jumped out of my skin and ran liike lightening to the car.
On Saturday I went to Mahon with Fiona and Emma. I felt so old, everyone in Mahon point is like 12 years old. I prefer town but town has no cinema. So its Mahon or Midleton.I went to see The curios case of Benjamin Button. I swear to God its the most boring film in the exsistance of films. My legs were killing me also as I had been swimming that morning. It was four hours long. It was late when we got out and all the shops were closed. So we got some hot chocolate and listen to this with cream and mallows! Yuuuum I only had half the cup it was so rich.
Anyway I shall leave you on that note...
Miss J
XXXXXX
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Today!
Ca va?
Bon je prends.
Well the Pres are going okay
Not expecting any As but sure right now I am too tired to care
Life is well. Mid term break is soon. A week of bliss. You can taste the freedom. Its like the last few days before summer holidays. Everyones minds are thinking about there summer plans and not focusing on exams at all. I hate exams in some ways in other ways I love them
Only four more to go before freedom!
Friday is Sineads birthday party, Going to the Chinese and Cinema. Not sure if I like Sinead. As long as she doesnt annoy me all is okay.
Saturday Fiona and Emma are coming to my house. We are going to get ready for town and then go.
I added Stephen as a friend on bebo, lets hope he accepts. Not that I like him or anything.
Sinead G is driving me insane. I think she thinks the only reason I want to meet up in town with her is to get in her brothers pants. Please do me a favor I am not trying to get it on ( lol ) with some 17 year old. I do have morals.
He is good looking though but no I spent almost a year with him in my mind I seriously need to get over it. See it not him
Okay weirdness. I am I know
I wonder maybe because I have embraced life. Stopped thinking Poor me etc that my life has improved
Miss J
XXXXX
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Today babeey!
Apologised to Miss E. Apologising is a sign of a good charachter anyway she sayed thats grand! So alls good in the hood there. Thank God I was really missing her.
I went swimming this morning I loved it Absolutly blooming loved it. Was so peaceful and relaxed only a few other people in the pool so I felt really good swimming. Tranquil. Felt in my own world not having to worry about lanes and getting in peoples way etc.
Moved all my studying gear into my room. So the goal of making my room a Sanctuary will have to be postponed or worked around. Studied there today didnt get distractede at all at all. So I felt my studying intensity was so much better.
Tommorrow I am going to try and wake up at 5am to study for 2 hours before school. Will tell you tommorrow how it all goes.
Played scrabble today with the parents. Good game yet vatti is very competitive. Quite frustrating as I am the same.
Talked to Marc today. He i going to send me to an Irish College during the summer. Yesh! Cant wait!
Going to go,
Toodles,
Miss J
X
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Mixed Emotions
I am thinking of reviewing my goals now that its mid january. Just make them more defined.
I need to sort my time management so much!
Toodles for now
X
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Thoughts today
Today was a good day in the later stage of it. this morning I felt like crying for no utter reason. I just feel my life is so boring. I am on a treadmill slowly walking along.
Miss J got her hair cut into a sort of bob, its lovely it really defines her face well.
I was speaking to miss L last night apparently Miss C is feeling really down about friends and everything I decided I would speak to her today. I hope she realises I am here for her. Miss R is still in hospital, cant believe she is actually in hospital I love her to bits how can she be abusing her body like this ( miss R is anorexic) I hope she is Ok. School is really lonely with out her.
Miss S is driving me mad I feel my anger rising at the thought of her. I was talking to Miss C and Miss E while walking to Centra and apparently she just likes to wind people up like that. No wonder people are not all too fond of her.
Today I could not go swimming as when mutti picked me up the car decided to break down, Perfect time for it. Must go swimming on Saturday and Sunday.
The Pres are soon am studying like a loon on loon tablets. Ie alot.
Hate buisness so much rubbish to cover. Urghh!
Anyway am going to go now and check my to so list. Do as much as possible tonight. Then make a new one tommorow.
Love and hugs,
JadeyX
Giving up salt
Has been almost a week.
Not missing it too much anymore I tend to have a lot of garlic though now to get that taste
My mother still puts it by my egg and toast in the mornings but I just ignore it.
January 2009 Goals
I just realised I added this goal and never actually put down the goals so here we go
Health & Fitness
Swim twice a week
Lose 4kg- 88kg
Drink green tea
Start food journal
Drink 2l of water daily
Weigh myself only once a week
Give up salt
School & Education
Keep to study plan for Pres
Mental & Self Development
Finish book on Erronous zones
Maintain grip on temper and not have red blaze moments
Happiness
Do Reinvent myself in 21 days plan
Family & Friends
Become friends again with Miss D and Miss L
Email family
Send Granny postcard
Research Good Friend
Beauty
Have beauty time once a week
Spiritual
Pray daily
Light candles at church
Finances
Organise finances
Organsation
Organise and clean room thouroughly
Make a list of what to do every day
Fold all those clothes on my chair
I need to reinvent this some how
The difficulty is that if I open the window every morning I will turn into an Ice cube. Ireland winter equals cold
Day one
Open windows at night to allow fresh air to circulate room
Day two
Sort out purse and wipe clean
Day 3
Clean school bag and wash
Day 4
Clean mirrors in bedroom
Day 4
Organise personal care items in room
Day 5
Vacuum under bed
Day 6
Vacuum carpet
Day 6
Sort wardrobe
Day 7
Organise folders and files
Day 8
Organise I Tunes
Day 9
Clean and polish shoes
Day 10
Relax
Day 11
Organise Room
Okay so I have organised it my way and it takes now 11 days as some of those things dont apply to me.
Supposed to be Day 3 of Green Tea
But alas no green tea in the cupboard. How is this possible?? I have no ideas… somoene has taken my tea!
So annoyed but am going to get some tommorow and start again.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Impossibility but not given up...
This is a goal I want to achieve but I have to priorotise other things. Its dark when I wake up its dark when I get home. As soon as its light until at least 7h I shall retake this goal.
So for now it has been given up but it shall be retaken in middle of February during school holidays!
Monday, January 12, 2009
The plan
- Day 1 *
Open the windows to change the air.
Day 2 *
Open the windows first thing in the morning and take a few deep breaths.
Day 3 *
Open the windows first thing in the morning, take a few deep breaths, and say “Thank you.”
You want to keep the good habit of caring for your personal space. Changing air is the easiest and immediately-effective approach, so you are spending full three days to get this in your behavior system. Keep doing this. Open the windows whenever you feel stuck. And add the positive energy of gratitude.
What is your baggage literally?
- Day 4 *
Take out everything from your wallet and throw away unnecessary items such as old receipts and coupons. Wipe the wallet with soft cloth and put things back with gratitude.
- Day 5 *
Do the same with your purse or bag. Carry only what you need in an organized way.
- Day 6 *
Check the address book in your cell phone or PDA. Delete contacts you do not need.
You are literally taking care of your baggage. Let go of the weight of junks and people who you know only drag you down. By making space for new things and people to come in, you are letting them in.
Bathroom: See yourself as you are to become who you want to be
- Day 7 * Clean the mirrors in the bathroom and Bedroom
- Day 8 * Relax day
- Day 9 * Put away the personal care items in the cupboard and clean the vanity.
The bedroomis where you go naked and see exactly who you are, both physically and figuratively. It may be uncomfortable to see yourself clearly as you are, but knowing who you are is the start of becoming who you want to be.
Bedroom: Energize yourself
- Day 10 *
Move as many appliances, furniture and knickknacks out of the bedroom. Vacuum (including the underneath of the bed). Bring in only what is nurturing for your rest and relaxation. Other things such as electric gadgets go to your work area.
- Day 11 *
Go through your wardrobe and throw away clothes that you don’t wear any longer. You can donate them to Good Will if they are still in good condition, so don’t feel bad about this.
- Day 12 * Wash the bed linen and the clothes.
Comfortable and energetically-clean bedroom is critical to be recharged fully during your sleep. Day 10 takes a lot of moving big items, so get help. Then define your new self by the clothes. This doesn’t have to mean you need to buy new clothes. First, let go of clothes that don’t resonate with who you want to be. They are holding you in your old roles.
Work Area: Make room for the new you
- Day 13 *
Check your bookshelf. Throw out books that you’ve read and don’t expect to read again, books you thought you would read someday but don’t see when that would be, along with old magazines and scraps.
- Day 14 *
Organise folders and files
- Day 15 *
Throw away your other “someday” items. This may include exercise kits, hobbies you thought you might try later, anything that you are holding onto just because it was cheap, or expensive, or supposed to be useful but don’t really see how it fits into your life.
That vague “someday” never comes. If you are serious about becoming the person you want to be, you have a plan – the fact that it stays someday means you don’t really need it. Let go of your someday stuffs and make room for the very thing you really want.
Entrance: Clear your door way for better luck
- Day 16 *
Designate area to take off shoes. You don’t want to bring in the dirt, literally and figuratively, from the outside into your personal space.
- Day 17 *
Clean up the door way. The entrance is the first place your visitors see upon coming to your place, so strive to give great first impression. No trash sitting there, please. This also helps you feel better yourself when you come home.
- Day 18 *
Clean your shoes.
The entrance is your interface with the outside world. You have prepared yourself by getting well recharged, letting go of the old, and making room for the new. Now you are ready to receive the good, and the luck comes through the doorway, symbolically and sometimes even literally.
Living and dining area: Receive the goodness with gratitude
- Day 19 * Clean the dining table. As usual, no unnecessary items – just clean placemats and a flower would do.
- Day 20 *Let the light in.
- Day 21 *
General clean up. If there are items that seem to be out of place, decide if you need it, and if so, decide where it goes. Each item needs its place. You want your place in the world, too.
Living and dining area is where you eat, relax and enjoy yourself and your loved ones. Are you fully ready to receive the good luck? Make your living room comfortable by first letting go of the mess.
Congratulations, you made it! Your place must be shining, and I’m sure you are feeling so proud. You are also clear in your thinking without all the distractions. You are on your way to be the person you envision.
12th January- My thoughts today
As I was walking back home from the estate I had a spiritual moment. I had my i-pod blaring and yet I managed to hear the church bells tolling the angelus. I took my earphones out and just felt this wave of emotion warm me. It was strange but good strange, I felt as if God was telling me everything will work out and hes up there somewhere guiding me. I think it like a calling and yet not to be a nun and devote my life to God in that sense of servitude. But more in a sense that he wants me to follow his guidance yet follow him in a way of changing the world one person at a time. Hence I need to help people more as I have done wrong things said mean things. But hopefully everything will work out.
On another note, I recieved my report today. Very happy have improved on some subjects vastly but let one or two slip but that was my own fault for not understanding material given
CSPE: 92% A
HISTORY: 93% A
MATHS: 65% C
BUISNESS: Prepare yourselfs 49% D
ENGLISH: 77% B
SCIENCE: 86% A
FRENCH: 85% A
GEOGRAPHY: 85% A
RELIGION:71% B
GERMAN: 79% B
IRISH: 57% C
I hopefully will improve marginally for my Pres.
Toodles
X
BMI:31.1
- My goal *
By the end of this year, December 31st, I want to achieve a BMI of 25.1 Therefore weighing 72kg.
BMI:31.1
- My goal *
By the end of this year, December 31st, I want to achieve a BMI of 25.1 Therefore weighing 72kg.
BMI:31.1
- My goal *
By the end of this year, December 31st, I want to achieve a BMI of 25.1 Therefore weighing 72kg.
Goal Date: February 31st
Why I want to do this
I want a body which is not overweight which is healthy
I deserve it. I am scared as weight is the mask in which I hide behind it is the reason I dont do somethings. Its an excuse.
How I will achieve this goal
By working with two other goals of mine
Eat healthy
Excercise for one hour daily
This goal is an expectation not a desire
Green Tea habit...Day 1
Goal
Drink one cup of green tea daily until it becomes a habit
ie: a week to two weeks
Why
1. It may prevent cancer
2. Raises metabolic rate
3. Reduces risk of heart disease
4. Helps prevent tooth decay
Have drunk one and a half cups today. I think it is an aquired habit. Which hopefully I will soon aquire.
How to make 2008 my best year yet
"Cant regret it"
How I did it: An unusual year full of welcome and welcome
suprises.
Managed to achieve the following
Went to Paris
Made friends ( broke them also )
Got okay marks
Went to French college
Saw my whole close family
Went to marcs wedding
Lost 5kg
Organised my room
Fell in love.... ha
Got a juicy bag
Got an ipod
Able to cook a few dishes
Went to Bondi
Lessons & tips: Make lists of what you want to do!
It took me 1 year.
It made me Glad ![]()
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Today, 11th January
I went swimming for an hour today, God help me when I begin to drive. I couldnt get a lane so I had to swim in the free area of the pool... grr!
People just kept on getting in the way.
Looking for new ideas for goals now!
Toodles
X
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Update 2
Control my temper done I am not tempermental anymore I snap at people but I dont scream, Music is my therapy baby!
Goal two
Cook roast with full trimmings not yet completed, Mutti forgot to buy Roast this week
Goal three
Weigh 90kg tomorrow is weigh day! Eeek!
Goal four
Weigh myself once a week this is completed. Now that I have divorced the scales I feel lighter and happier. I dont have too worry about every little thing I eat.
Goal five
Keep in contact with Lauren. I see she has moved me up her top 16 aww it just warms the cockles of my heart. I shall ring her before the Pres to organise town at midterm
Goal six
Start couch to 5k plan .......... well not much to report here. I must start otherwise I shall regret it!
Goal seven
Donate old clothes .. shall do this soon
Goal eight
Stop adding salt to food am doing good on this goal but am waiting till wednesday to cross this goal off completly
Goal nine
Do one hour of excersise daily for a week..this is an easy goal on weekend but not on weekdays. Have managed two days so far
Thursday, January 8, 2009
January Goals update
Control temper for one week
Goal two
Cook Roast with full trimmings
Goal three
Weigh 90kg
Goal four
Only weigh myself ONCE a week- Sundays
Goal five
Keep in contact with Lauren
Goal six
Start couch to 5k plan
Goal seven
Donate all old clothes sitting in moms cupboard
Goal eight
Stop adding salt to food
Goal nine
Do an hour of excersise every day for one week
Update 1
Control my temper for one week
Progress: Has been controlled sufficently since tuesday evening
Goal two
Study for Pres
Progress: I think I can mark this goal as achieved as I know I will study as hard as I can and before Christmas I studied very well.
Goal three
Be able to cook a roast with full trimmings
Progress: Will cook on sunday
Goal five
Maintain good oral health.
Progress: I have been to Orthodontist, am wearing elastics and washing my teeth as normal.
Goal six
Weigh 90kg
Progress: None as am not allowed to weigh myself until 1st Feb.
Goal seven
Do four hours of excersise weekly
Progress: Very little as have not focused on this goal yet
Goal eight
Clean and organise room
Progress: This goal is completed
Maintain control of my temper for one week.Kept temper down no anger at all
Create a anger chart and whenever I lose temper record it and why I have lost my temper.
Learn to discuss calmly and sort things out without seeing red.
Goal Two
Study for Pres
Make timetable of study to be done starting Thursday 8th. I think I can take this out as I have managed to stick with studying as much as I can
I have made timetable Study for 30 hours a week.
Take one evening off a week.
Goal three
Be able to Cook a Roast
Include everything Yorkshire Pudding especially
Goal four
Keep in contact with Lauren
Ring Lauren on the last week of January before Pres
Goal five
Maintain good oral health
Go to Orthodontist on the 7th done thank god- open mouth bite on back teeth blah blah blah pay €50 for 5 minutes of his time.
New Goal: Wear elastics every night and all the time when at home. Not allowed to wear out as when done I have a slight resemblance to Dracula. How charming.Rather easy goal as already do it every night
Goal six
Weigh 90kg
Am only allowed to weigh myself on the 1st February.
I must lose approxiametly two kilos a month
Goal seven
Do four hours of excersize a week 15minute walk/run today which equals a km
Make a schuedule of excersise done and increase sufficently
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Update on January Goals
Maintain control of my temper.Kept temper down no anger at all
Create a anger chart and whenever I lose temper record it and why I have lost my temper.
Learn to discuss calmly and sort things out without seeing red.
Goal Two
Study for Pres
Make timetable of study to be done starting Thursday 8th. I have made timetable
Study for 30 hours a week.
Take one evening off a week.
Goal three
Be able to Cook a Roast
Include everything Yorkshire Pudding especially
Goal four
Keep in contact with Lauren
Ring Lauren on the last week of January before Pres
Goal five
Maintain good oral health
Go to Orthodontist on the 7th done thank god- open mouth bite on back teeth blah blah blah pay €50 for 5 minutes of his time.
New Goal: Wear elastics every night and all the time when at home. Not allowed to wear out as when done I have a slight resemblance to Dracula. How charming.
Goal six
Weigh 90kg
Am only allowed to weigh myself on the 1st February.
I must lose approxiametly two kilos a month
Goal seven
Do four hours of excersize a week 15minute walk today
Make a schuedule of excersise done and increase sufficently
Goal eight
Clean and organise room Done and dusted last night
You can only live up to your expectations, not your desires
Today was a good day I havent weighed myself:) Happy Smile! SHould be losing weight as eating well.
I studied for about three hours today. That is very good for me. Am not worried about Pres.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
2009 Resolutions
Play Tennis
Swim twice a week every week
Lost 20kg therefore weighing 72kg
Exercise for one hour daily
Have a healthy BMI
Eat healthier
Follow Paul Mc Kennas four golden rules
Have a food journal for two weeks
Drink 2l of water daily
Learn about portion sizes
Try Meditation
Try pilates
Document my body changes once a month
Do 100 pullups daily for a week
Weigh myself only once a week
Join teen gym
Join running club
Get 19% body fat
Sleep properly
Give up salt
Eat five fruit/vegetables daily
Try drinking green tea once daily for a week
Be able to run 5km
School and Education
Have gotten eleven A`s in JC
Do the TY
Get 5 As in Pres
Mental self development
Become charming
Have maintained grip on temper
Become more cultured
Not care too much about what others think
Swear less
Stop procrastinating
Read Debretts Ettiquete and apply rules to life where available
Become more polite
Happiness
Try the reinvent yourself in 21days plan
Make my room a sanctuary
Join the hunger website and log in once a week
Be happy
Identify 100 things that make me happy
Social and Family
Have many good friends
Developed a good relationship with my Dad/John
Maintain contact with my siblings
Maintain contact with Granny
Keep contact with Lauren
Go out on JC night
Be a good friend
Make everyone around me happy
Give 500 cheers on my 43things
Be more social
Beauty and Rawrness
Be a model
Have braceless white teeth
Have me-beauty-time once a week
Go to the dentist
Get glasses…..
Spiritual
Do something good every day
Pray daily
Learn astrology
Light candles at the church once a month
Read my bible
Finacial and Material
Saved €600 in College Fund
Have a job
Creativness
Create a blog
Get a picture into National Geographic
Be able to cook 14 dishes
Take up photography
Create a memory book of 2008
Create a memory book of 2009
Fashion
Be a fashionista
Be a size 10
Buy and WEAR a bikini
Make a list of clothes needed
Organisation
Organise my room
Stop throwing my clothes on the floor, instead fold them and put away
Create a morning routine
Make a list of what to do everday
Create monthly mini goals
Travel
Return to South Africa
Go to Dublin
Go to New York
I have stuck this up in my room to give me motivation
January Goals
Welcome 2009
I tend to set many goals only getting very few completed. I must keep my goals specific.
Goal One
Maintain control of my temper.
Create a anger chart and whenever I lose temper record it and why I have lost my temper.
Learn to discuss calmly and sort things out without seeing red.
Goal Two
Study for Pres
Make timetable of study to be done starting Thursday 8th.
Study for 30 hours a week.
Take one evening off a week.
Goal three
Be able to Cook a Roast
Include everything Yorkshire Pudding especially
Goal four
Keep in contact with Lauren
Ring Lauren on the last week of January before Pres
Goal five
Maintain good oral health
Go to Orthodontist on the 7th
Goal six
Weigh 90kg
Am only allowed to weigh myself on the 1st February.
I must lose approxiametly two kilos a month
Goal seven
Do four hours of excersize a week
Make a schuedule of excersise done and increase sufficently
Goal eight
Clean and organise room
This is rather easy to do as I organised it in June 2008
My first post!
So this is a blog of basically my life, how thrilling I know, and my new years resolutions one of them being recording my life.